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[heidi]

This is probably the most difficult post I've made here on LJ in a long time, if ever.

This morning, nostrademons emailed me and praetorianguard regarding some IP matches that he did using information posted on recent Charlotte Lennox posts on JournalFen and comments to those posts.

On JournalFen, el juno posted 68.82.43.3 as the address they have at JournalFen associated with Sporkify - as far as nostrademons, praetorianguard and I can tell, this is the first time that IP address has been publicly shared as a "sockpuppet" IP address. nostrademons ran it through FA's archives, and found that it did match the IP address used by MsScribe on FA in the winter and spring of 2004.

Back in March of 2004, when I was told that many GT'ers thought that Sporkify was an FA Mod, I did ask on the Yahoogroup we have for mod-organizational things whether anyone on said list was Sporkify, and MsScribe lied to me. She posted a reply and said that people thought it was someone on her flist, and then said, "Did they wank something else? *goes to look*"

I believed her, just as I believed all the other FA Mods who posted to that list that week and said they weren't Sporkify - and of course, everyone but MsScribe answered truthfully. But I believed her, and praetorianguard believed her, and so did everyone else. After that, there was one more wank posted by Sporkify on F_W - this one actually involved wanking about FA and some of its mods - and at almost the same time, MsScribe asked if she could resign from FA. I, of course, said yes, and she stopped modding on FA. She was on-staff from early June, 2003 (when I was on leave having my son Jon, then working on Nimbus) until late March, 2004, and in that time-frame was on leave for most of November and December.

Now, I know people are going to say that we should've figured this out before, but we had no information about Sporkify's IP address, and we had no expectation that JF would ever release it, because their ToU's Privacy Policy states, "Journalfen will never release your personal
information, to anyone, except as may be required by law, or in the course of any possible legal proceedings.... Journalfen will never sell, or otherwise make available, information that is not required for the normal display of your journal."

Back in the spring of 2003, praetorianguard and owlman tried to make it clear that FA mods were not acting for FA when they weren't posting on the site, and that only the two of them and I were authorized to act on behalf of FA off-site. Therefore, unless someone complained about MsScribe as an FA moderator or she violated the FA ToU in some way, none of this involved FA. At that time, nobody directly contacted me about it, afaik.

Personally, I am sorry anyone was hurt by anything that has happened in fandom over the last six years that I've been a part of it. I feel extremely duped and upset about this whole situation. That being said, I am all written-out at this point, and so I'm going to parrot Irina. It's so hard to understand how someone who has been so kind to me, and whom I've seen be kind to others, could also do this - could be untruthful directly to me.

I don't think I've ever posted anything publicly or semi-publicly to hurt any of the GT users. I am friends with people who had fics there, and who posted there, and I would never want to hurt them, or anyone else who was an innocent victim of anything or anyone, and I know everyone else on FA's org team feels the same way.

If I have, I apologize for it. All these years, I've thought this was something that had nothing to do with me, or with FictionAlley and I really still feel that 99% of it didn't - we don't have any conclusive information to add to the discussion regarding Fermatojam or Pottersginny, according to the investigating that nostrademons did of our database.

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[heidi8.livejournal.com]

people have a responsiblity not to have their heads in the sand when dealing with others on the internet.

I agree, and that's why I had our techie-types look into the IP issues at the time. And also, at the time, other friends of mine, including ari_o, asked MsScribe about this. She and I weren't especially good friends at that time - I mean, there were about 35 mods on at FA and another dozen or so art approvers, and another 30 or so fic intakers and uploaders and all the ones with LJs were on my friendslist - so why would she have been honest with me about anything when she wasn't honest with me about the Sporkify situation? When I got all the Fermatojam-et al IP info from Angua in Spring of 04, I had recently *asked* about Sporkify, and she lied to me.

So now you say, "I would have looked into it a little bit more than asking "Hey Mo, did you do that?" and taking her word for it over any IP evidence." So you would've believed inconclusive IP evidence over a friend who you had no reason to believe was dishonest? That's your call; it wasn't, at the time, mine. And I was completely hoodwinked. I was completely wrong to believe her.

When the CharityGate wankery broke, you waited several days, and through several PLEAS from 3rd parties - while MsScribe attacked an ill woman on that woman's LJ for the crime of contacting you to ask for help

No, I did not. snacky posted on my LJ about the posts on Sapphsmum's LJ just before March 14th began, and when I was next online (about 14ish hours later according to my gmail timestamps) I replied. D had already said she was through posting there, by the time I saw it, and a bunch of posts were screened so I never saw them - I did get in touch with D and ask her to keep to her pledge, though. I didn't know she was going to post there before she posted there. Snacky and I dialogued about it and I looked at the situation more extensively and I did post a request for people to stop about an hour or so later. It didn't, of course, which I knew would happen, but I did try.

Please remember that I was four weeks away from delivering at that point. I think it's awful that Christina and family had to read anything that was deliberately cruel, but you're suggesting that I should have been able to stop someone who had lied to me, and who had done things to hurt me? How do you think I could have accomplished that? Even threatening to defriend her if she posted there again would've been utterly useless because she just would've used a journal not associated with her name, and I never would've known.

When these posts started last week, I did say in IIRC two livejournals that there were inaccuracies in the posts. And there are. They're small details - and big details - and they're not accurate, but while it seemed on Friday that those kinds of details were important, they don't seem so now. If anyone wants to know them, I may have the time to list them out in a few weeks, for curiosity's sake. They're not important now.

I don't think ari_o called Dayton because she relied on the police report itself. But as I've said before, I wasn't really around at the time, so everything I knew was second-hand.
(too long for LJ - will continue in reply #2)