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But it won't always hurt this bad.
- song #2, Grace of My Heart
It's a year tonight - not to the date, but to the day, this third Friday in June - that so many hundreds and thousands of us waited in lines and grasped and devoured our copies of OotP. Fueled by caffine and sugar and companionship - whether in the same room, over the phone or oer the internet - we made it through those hundreds of pages.
And I don't know about you, but I was devestated. I'd been listening to the Grace of My Heart soundtrack on the way home and when I stopped short, while A Boat on the Sea was playing, my copy fell onto the floor and opened to something in the 820s, and I still remember what I saw on the lefthand page. That Harry hadn't spoken to Hermione and Ron much "since Sirius died."
And here's how the song goes:
I can't songfic it; I've tried. I know some of the lines are Remus. Some are Harry. Some are Sirius. Some are two, or all three of them. And the rest of the soundtrack is no different. Every song, by this point, gives me the vaguest of plot bunnies but when I try to pin them down, well, it's like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands.
I thought at a year, I'd hate it less, that ending, but every time I see PoA, the stab into my heart is still there.
If I had one question of Cuaron and Kloves, it would be, how much did you change the last scene with Harry and Sirius, and what was it like, originally. Because the way it is now is painful with its foreshadowing - a foreshadowing *all* of us know. And hell, one year on, I still can't bring myself to reread those pages. I wonder if I'll eer be able to. Maybe after Book 6?
- song #2, Grace of My Heart
It's a year tonight - not to the date, but to the day, this third Friday in June - that so many hundreds and thousands of us waited in lines and grasped and devoured our copies of OotP. Fueled by caffine and sugar and companionship - whether in the same room, over the phone or oer the internet - we made it through those hundreds of pages.
And I don't know about you, but I was devestated. I'd been listening to the Grace of My Heart soundtrack on the way home and when I stopped short, while A Boat on the Sea was playing, my copy fell onto the floor and opened to something in the 820s, and I still remember what I saw on the lefthand page. That Harry hadn't spoken to Hermione and Ron much "since Sirius died."
And here's how the song goes:
There's a lamp that won't light in my poetry room and children out playing in a big full moon. My man's barricaded there in his room. He'll be coming out soon.
I remember when I met him, he blew in like the wind. No-one was more beautiful or dangerous than him. He blew through my soul with a tangerine wind. He's coming out soon.
Luxury looms on a fogbound day. I am not alone now; I am not afraid. I'm clean and I'm free - it's all stripped away. All debts are paid.
I wonder if he ever looks down at the sea, thinks about the time that he spent with me. I know everything's exactly how it has to be. All's right with this world.
I never knew I was built so strong. My heart is a boat on the sea. I never thought I was built for hurricaines. My heart is a boat on the sea, through the cold and the dark, with the grace of my heart.
I can't songfic it; I've tried. I know some of the lines are Remus. Some are Harry. Some are Sirius. Some are two, or all three of them. And the rest of the soundtrack is no different. Every song, by this point, gives me the vaguest of plot bunnies but when I try to pin them down, well, it's like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands.
I thought at a year, I'd hate it less, that ending, but every time I see PoA, the stab into my heart is still there.
If I had one question of Cuaron and Kloves, it would be, how much did you change the last scene with Harry and Sirius, and what was it like, originally. Because the way it is now is painful with its foreshadowing - a foreshadowing *all* of us know. And hell, one year on, I still can't bring myself to reread those pages. I wonder if I'll eer be able to. Maybe after Book 6?
