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Today, it's been a year since I posted chapter 10 of Surfeit of Curses.

I suck.

I've written about 25 pages - but it's barely 1/4 done. In the past year, I've written a chapter of Titanic Days for Eb's Trouble in Paradise universe, a chapter of Homage, a silly draco/harry ficlet for our Valentine's Challenge, cowritten a fic with Cassie for the AT Summer Challenge and have not finished my fanfic.

And why?

This.

I know it's a beloved site. And I just love the fact that we hit 10,000 users pretty much on the anniversary of my last chapter of SoC.

But I also hate it. I hate the fact that I don't have time to write. I swore I wouldn't get to this point - that I would finish before this year was up - and I've missed it. It isn't done and it can't be.

So I just have to go on. I have to finish it - perhaps when Simon is back and I can take 10 days off from FA, which I have never ever done. And if I do, I'll shut off LJ, turn off YM to everyone but my betas, and just write.

Of course, I'll turn on the music first.