Things I did this week that I never wanted to do:

[heidi]

1. Wrote an obituary
2. Faxed papers to the county coroner
3. Heard my 33 year old sister described as a widow
4. Helped coordinate a memorial service and a funeral service for someone younger than me
5. Started work on a mix in Brian's memory. Expect me to ask for some Kayne West and Fifty Cent songs for it as I have none. I have the Asia and Hooters songs he loved, though.
6. Got in touch with USC to set up a scholarship there in Brian's memory.


I'm flying home soon, and my parents will be bringing Liz and little Sydney, along with the two dogs, in three more days. She's coming back to Miami for at least the near future, and will likely stay in south Florida permanently and all I can do is be here for her.

Thanks to all of you who've been here for me.

Comments

[mars-daydream.livejournal.com]

Heidi, I am so sorry.

You are giving such wonderful support to your sister and her family. I can't even imagine what they must be going through.

[marilla82.livejournal.com]

Heidi, you and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers all week. Don't forget to give yourself some time to grieve, too.

[weatherguy2000.livejournal.com]

I haven't posted 'til now, but your family has been in out thoughts. I'm saddened at what happened. It will suck for a while, but it will get easier with time.

[lizzieangel90.livejournal.com]

Oh Heidi, I'm so sorry to hear this! I only met you briefly at Lumos, but you are a very special person. I have kayne west songs and 50 cent songs. Just let me know if I can help you in any way. My prayers and hugs are out to you and your family. -Lizzie

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

All my hugs and support, you know that.

I have a fairly extensive collection of 50cent and Kanye -- I know it will be a Jewish service, but Kanye's "Jesus Walk" would seem to be apt. Let me know if I can help.

[rdcf.livejournal.com]

Your sister and your whole family are in my thoughts.

[slytherincesss.livejournal.com]

How terrible. I'm so sorry for all of you, for the devestating loss of Brian. I know there are really no adequate words, but hopefully knowing we're all thinking of you and your family will provide at least some comfort. ♥

[ivyblossom.livejournal.com]

If you give me titles of the songs you're needing, I'll get them to you. As always, I'm here if you need anything at all. Though you already have my thoughts, prayers, and love.

[poconell.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry Heidi. 33 is just too young. I hope your neice is coping through all of this. I can't imagine hard this must be for her and her mom.

::hugs::

[angelamermaid.livejournal.com]

*hugsz* I'm still reeling in shock from my father's death, I am continuing to pray for strength and healing for you and your family.

[waterbird.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry, Heidi. This must be so devastating for you and your whole family, especially your sister. I lost one of my best friends very tragically and suddenly when we were 25, so I know how cruel and unfair it is when someone dies so young. It sounds like you're being incredibly strong and supportive -- make sure you take care of yourself, too, though. You're in my thoughts.

[jessryn.livejournal.com]

Heidi, I'm so sorry for you and your family. This has been in my mind since you've first posted about it, but I had not commented until now. Your sister and all your family remain in my thoughts.

[annearchy.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Heidi. I can't imagine your family's pain.

[heybritney.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Heidi. I hope things get better, this is the worst it can get. I was reading and hoping for his recovery, and I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Feel better.

[gmth.livejournal.com]

My thoughts are with you and your family. I'm so sorry this happened.

[kiwiria.livejournal.com]

I have no words, just *hugs*. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[smilie117.livejournal.com]

You and your family are in my thoughts and will continue to be *hugs you so much*

[amoeba-j.livejournal.com]

oh Heidi, I'm so sorry to hear about all of this; I was offline all week, so this is the first I heard about your family's loss. I'll think of you & your sister & family next week during the Misheberach for healing.

[roguebitch.livejournal.com]

You and your family continue to be in my thoughts, Heidi...*hugs from the periphery*

[cedarlibrarian.livejournal.com]

Your family is lucky to have someone like you. Your strength is something they needed. The Family Cedar sends their love and thoughts.

(And I have the 8 Mile soundtrack, which has some 50 Cent songs, so lmk if you want it.)

[bbennett.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Heidi. We should all get to die in our sleep at a very old age, surrounded by love ones. It seems it very seldom happens that way, though.

[nyourdrms.livejournal.com]

It does get easier.

T

[sandy-phoenix.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

That's quite a list. I'm really very sorry. This has been such a very difficult time for your whole family. You are all definitely in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad to know you all have each other. Family is always important but sometimes you feel it more than others.

[kimmparker.livejournal.com]

I have nothing but hugs for all y'all *HUG* Just remember that you and everyone are in a lot of people's thoughts and that we're all here for you. We'll talk at some point about fluffy, nonsense things to take your mind off things. You need time for you :) *HUGS*

[abigail89.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry for your family's loss. It's just unimaginable...

[jnpsmama.livejournal.com]

Heidi. I am so very sorry. There is really nothing else to say that hasn't already been said.

*hugs you*

[heidi8.livejournal.com]

He died on Tisha'bav. And we all forgot to fast.

[airemay.livejournal.com]

*hugs* We're all thinking of you and your family. I'll be praying for your sister. ♥

[stephandra.livejournal.com]

Heidi,

I am so sorry for your family's tragic loss. My prayers are with all of you, and I'm glad you can at least seek strength in each other.

[zorb]

*hugs*

[siriologist.livejournal.com]

I haven't been keeping up with LJ and just now read your first entry. I am so sorry for your family's loss. How tragic. If I could email strength to help you get through all this, I would. If you need anything from this side of the state, let me know. Take care of yourself. Your sister is lucky to have such a close and wonderful family. You'll get through this.

Carole

[allysonsedai.livejournal.com]

Heidi, you and your family have been in my thoughts continuously this week. I only wish there was something I could do to ease things for you. *hugs*

[alissomora.livejournal.com]

You and your family are in my thoughts ♥

[kokopoko.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That is indeed tough to go through.

[schnoogle.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[tinnidawg.livejournal.com]

Your Sister, his parents, your parents and the rest of your family will be in my prayers. Hopefully everyones' prayers will help in the healing process.

Life is so unfair so often. Please take care of yourself. You will need to have your strength to take care of all your family.

hugs
tinnidawg

[enelya-oronar.livejournal.com]

{{{HUGS}}} I cannot imagine (or don't want to imagine) going through this - as either you or your sister. We all just hope it does not happen this way - long life is what we all assume, not to have that just feels wrong. I am very sorry for your family and this untimely loss.

[genealogygirl.livejournal.com]

As you know, all my love to you and your family. Your sister and niece will really need your support and love as they rebuild their lives, so I'm glad that they will be close. I can't imagine the grief she must be experiencing.

:::hugs:::

[teawithvoldy.livejournal.com]

My condolances Heidi! :(